Psalm 34:
18 The Lord is near to those who are discouraged;
he saves those who have lost all hope.
19 Good people suffer many troubles,
but the Lord saves them from them all;
20 the Lord preserves them completely;
not one of their bones is broken.
Psalm 35:
9 Then I will be glad because of the Lord;
I will be happy because he saved me.
10 With all my heart I will say to the Lord,
“There is no one like you.
You protect the weak from the strong,
the poor from the oppressor.”
The above two passages brought much needed relief to this sojourner- let me explain…..
I must admit…. I fell into a pit .. Don’t know how I got here! Been trying to find my way out …. for days now! A pit, a fog, dazed and confused.
How do we go from the light to the darkness without even knowing it? Or how it happened. We awake one day , in the dark; our hope, joy, peace, light and faith….Gone!
Up in smoke. We grope for answers- we cry out – help! Father, how did I go from sweet fellowship to feeling so lost? Where are You?
I go to the Psalms. Yes , that’s it! David had many days like this… Even Weeks? Probably. I read…. No help ! I grope in the dark, very aware of my frailty, my humanness. I am reminded that even Jesus had moments like this. Yes! Thank you Father for that reminder.
Like Paul… I exclaim…. “Who will deliver me from this body of death?!”
I press on- reminding myself of the truth – “He will never leave nor forsake me! Yes! ”
“Build on that truth Jon ” I remind myself. The dialogue continues.
I tell my wife of my struggles. Somehow, this transparency brings some relief. A ray of light penetrates my dark spirit. Pressing on, I keep praying, keep reading the word, keep telling myself the truth.
” DON’T TRUST YOUR FEELINGS JON, YOU MUST STAND ON THE TRUTH, TRUSTING HIS WORD- HIS PROMISES!”
I awake early, 5:15. I go out to the living room … I get on my knees, feebly attempt to pray- “oh there must be relief in sight”, I say.
No- not really. Defeated.. I go back to bed. Thankfully, I fall back to sleep.
Ah! Sleep! Maybe I can sleep through this, And one day wake to find myself renewed – back in the light of His presence. Full of joy and peace again. That would be nice but unrealistic. I seem to be doing better.
A song has returned. I hum a tune of praise. This comes out of know where! I feel relief. I keep moving forward. The truth shall set me free. Yep. Truth! Not feelings. Truth is my Firm Foundation. My feelings are like shifting sand or better yet… Quick sand.
I am doing much better, but waiting for revelation. How this happened and what I can learn from it. When the counselor illuminates I will pass it on to you. Psalm 35 reminded me of the following song… One of my favorites!
Gods Peace! Jonathan
“Higher ” Lyrics [edit]
by Gungor | from the album Beautiful Things
There is no one there is no one like You- no one like you in heaven or on earth
only good things can ever come from you
even your judgment
is righteous and true
Your Name is sweeter than the rain that falls upon the face of dry and weary land and causes us to turn our face again
Your Name be praised
and be lifted higher
There is no one… With every morning there are mercies new
Your kindness
brings us back to you
Your name is stronger than the pain
it’s covering the shame of all these weary hands and causing us to turn our face again
Your Name be praised
